TGIF

I've had sooooo many things I have wanted to write about...and I've been busy over at some other sites (news to come)...so I am going to do a fragmented piece here that may or may not have fans. If you are feeling sensitive today, visit another day.

Facebook sucks. All Facebook really does is make me feel bad for assuming people are smarter than they really are (this does not apply to all you FBers). Now, that said, I stay on it because I love quick messages to hook up play dates and I love to post pictures of the kids and Eddie Vedder and I super love keeping up with all the funny and cute stuff you all do....but why do people passive agressively attack on Facebook....and why don't folks read things outside of Facebook instead of just posting what is already on there. I feel sad. Some people I thought were friends made me sad today....and this is my passive aggressive (if I am good at anything it is hypocrisy) way of letting them know it. I don't want to create hate and anger. I want us to all see what we have in common...as humans...and to figure out a way to make the condition better for everyone we are on this journey with. That's all. That's all.


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Okay....since I am not as uber-bothered by the FB as the section above might indicate, I want to move on to the more pressing topic I have wanted to write about. ALYA'S DANCE RECITAL! (maybe I should not end that with an EXCLAMATION...because it most certainly is not going to happen....)

I want opinions. I may or may not weigh them heavily or lightly but I want them nonetheless. A dear friend shared her thoughts with me today and it made me feel good about my gut on this. Maybe more of you can confirm what I am already thinking.

Ben and Alya were allowed to choose between music, dance, and soccer. Alya chose dance, Ben chose soccer. When they made these choices, we explained the parameters of the commitment and that they would be expected to serve out their seasons/year in the activity and could then continue the activity or move to something else. Alya has become obsessed with the idea of doing a recital. She is bummed about it. We have explained that it is in May and that it will be fine. Now, she loves to dress for dance and do the moves. On a stage at the Davidson Center yesterday, she performed, careless that unknown folks were watching. She was free, like a bird, with her beautiful arabesques....And, while Daddy and I have not had a discussion about it yet, my gut feeling is to tell her she will not have to do the recital if she feels stressed about it. Yes, I have paid for the costume, and yes, I know this will lead to a great deal of dismay for camera weilding family members. I am not trying to cause strife, what I do need to do, though, is make sure Alya is free to enjoy her classes for the rest of the year and stop being fixated on the recital.
If we think we may let her bow out, shouldn't we tell her now she has the option? I think I already know the answer....just interested in what everyone else thinks (this is a rare moment...seize it while you can).

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I never get to go out....and by never I mean...NEVER...and cosmic forces aligned this weekend and I am, somehow, getting to go hang with a very cool group of ladies tonight for a GNO to celebrate a special girl's birthday! AND....wait for it...wait for it....I GET TO GO ON A DATE TOMORROW WITH ADAM LANDINGHAM!!!! You know that picture I posted of Eddie Vedder on the boat....date night with Adam is so much better. We are going to hang out and have some good food and hang out some more....and I just can hardly contain myself. I am almost to a point of depravity (is that excessive?) just by being denied adult human contact for so long....

no this is not a segue into some weird intimate stuff....

This is me saying that it has been so long since I sat and had a face to face conversation with my husband that was allowed to be organic and natural and just take it's time, that I do not recall the last time, and that is a shame, because I very clearly recall sitting in his old Mercury Mystique behind Research Hall, listening to Corduroy, singing our lungs out and then laughing afterward...and I remember how I felt and how amazing it was....and that has been almost 14 years ago. Sad. [we've had lots of good moments these 14 years...I just cannot remember the last time we got to hang out...so I am excited....that needed clarification]

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I have so much more I want to say and write, but it is not my intention for my blog to ever be hurtful to anyone or to disclose other people's private info, so I will say this. If you are prayerful or if you could just send good energy, please do. I am surrounded by folks facing tough issues right now, and much good energy is needed.

Here is hoping you have a great weekend! I know I am going to do my best!