Caves

Sooooooo......I used to be public...the blog that is.....well, I have always been a tad bit public as well, you know, me, myself, personally....always sharing way too much information...kind of that loud and obnoxious girl in the room that you sort of hate, but you don't kick her out b/c she is keeping everyone entertained, and she'll give you something to talk about later. Yeah, that girl. That's me.

Then I had kids....and I started a blog...and people would comment....and more people would email me (because for some reason folks love to read but hate to comment) and would tell me how much they loved my writing.

Then the thing happened.....there was an odd comment left on the blog one day. It was a foreign language I cannot read, and there was a link, and the link went to something that looked vaguely like young Asian girl porn.

Now, this is how 99% of brains work: "Oh my gosh, [I'm pretending like I am a talking brain here] some crazy people are trying to promote their teenage girl soft core porn on my blog about my sweet, precious, little angel, pumpkin babies."

A cloud of irrationality fills this space here { }

My brain: "HOLY SHIT, somebody overseas has figured out how to tap into my blog and they are posting pictures of my kids eating cereal on their child porn website and these kind of people are hackers and they know how to figure things out so they are probably going to figure out where we live and they are going to come and kidnap my kids and it will all be my fault because I allowed this blog to be public. Sick bastards."

Click.

I pulled the plug and the blog went private.

And, I admit, the comments and emails have dwindled to nada.....okay, I get some traffic, but it is limited, and, frankly, I used to get these super excited messages about how fun my writing is (or, when it is twisted, I think people who feel twisted that day don't feel so alone).

And then I thought about all the blogs I enjoy ever so much that are public, that involve children (see mhy blog list for the blogs I love) and I felt led back to going public.

Am I going to surpass 4 followers? Maybe not.

Are some crazy muthas going to steal my children? I hope not.

Am I going to write things that are shocking and in poor taste? of course....apparently, I am the queen of shock, and, considering I don't try to be, I figure I have a natural affinity......might.as.well.work.it.

Not sure what I'll tackle. I've had tangy topics before. Generally, I just hit a kind of weekly update...here is a kid eating a booger.....here is a kid acting like a goofy shit (oh yeah, my blog, gonna curse)....

Next time I'll leave out all the dot, dot, dotssssssss and I'll just keep it on lockdown.

Try to enjoy while I am here. If Ben and Alya show up on an Asian child porn website, I'll have to pull the plug again.